4 years ago today, my world was turned upside down. 4 years ago today I heard the dreaded word that sends fear jolting through even the bravest person. Cancer.
I lived in Arizona at the time, thousands of miles away from my family in the Midwest. I was teaching school, a newlywed of just under a year and extremely happy. It was the second to last day of school and I was looking forward to a relaxing summer vacation.
This particular day I happened to leave my cell phone in my car and after school I found that I had an unusually large amount of text messages and voice mails. Through the messages I found out the vague information that something had happened to my mom and she was transported to a hospital 1 1/2 from our hometown. I grew up in a small town, but there was a hospital. I knew that if she was transported, that meant it was serious, more than the small hospital could handle.
When I talked to one of my older brothers I wasn’t given too much specific information. All he knew was that she was having some issues getting dressed that morning and they think she may have had a stroke. My heart sank. Her father had died in his fifties from complications brought on by multiple strokes. My mom was fifty-five at the time.
Somehow I made the drive home from school, but there was nothing for me to do but wait. I talked to my two brothers multiple times, one of whom had made the trip to the hospital to be with my parents, but wasn’t given any more specific information.
Then, much later that evening, I got a call from my mom’s sister. Aunt Mary informed me that it wasn’t a stroke after all. What had caused my mom the trouble getting dressed was in fact a brain tumor that was causing her brain to swell. She would need brain surgery as soon as possible. They also found a mass on her lung. This was cancer.
I fell to my knees and the only word that could escape my lips was “No.” No, no, no. Not cancer. Not my family. No.
Through the ringing in my ears and the thick fog that seemed to be developing around me, I heard my aunt say, “She needs you here.”
I was on a plane the next morning. Tim came with me, but his ticket was only for a few days. Mine was a one-way ticket. I had no idea how long I’d stay, but I knew I wouldn’t be able to leave my mom’s side in just a few days.
The days that followed are almost a blur to me now. The more we learned about her cancer, the scarier life became. Her officially diagnosis was stage IV lung cancer with metastasis to her brain. They would operate to remove the tumor from her brain, but the doctors were never reassuring. They never gave us an inkling of hope to which we could grasp.
When I was asking one doctor in particular a question, she answered, “You understand that her cancer isn’t curable. We are only operating on her brain tumor to improve her quality of life. The tumor on her lung is inoperable.”
My answer was, “We’ll be getting a second opinion on that.”
Despite the prognosis given to stage IV lung cancer patients, there was never a moment that I didn’t think my mom could beat it. I never accepted that she would be one of the statistics.
The average survival time for a stage IV lung patient is 8 months with a longer survival rate that hovers only between 5-10%. I’m not going to lie and say that those numbers didn’t knock the wind out of me. But once I caught my breath, I filled myself with only positive thoughts. Someone had to be in the 5-10%. Why not my mom?
She had her brain surgery the next day. By the grace of God, this hospital was home to one of the nation’s top neurosurgeons. He was able to take out the entire tumor and told us she was lucky that it was an encased tumor and not the type that spider-webbed to surrounding areas.
We were surprised at how easy the recovery was from brain surgery. To enter the brain, there’s no muscle to go through, so there’s not the same type of pain that comes with other surgeries. She was ready to be discharged just two days later.
Her assigned oncologist suggested that she get whole brain radiation just in case there were tiny cancer cells floating around in her brain followed by chemotherapy to attack the tumor in her lung. Instead, we decided to go to the Mayo Clinic in Minneapolis for a second opinion.
I decided I would stay as long as I could to help my parents. I was on my summer vacation from teaching, after all, and my dad had to balance caring for my mom with running their small businesses. My two brothers had regular jobs, children, and couldn’t be away the way I could.
There was a two week wait before we could get into the Mayo Clinic. During this time we tried to help my mom focus on other things, but that’s not easy to do when you have a stage IV lung cancer diagnosis hanging over your head.
She would say things like, “You don’t have any kids yet, Maryea, I need to make it long enough to see you have a baby.”
And I would answer, “Mom, you’re going to live long enough to see my kids’ weddings.”
It wasn’t that I wanted to instill false hope in her. I really believed it. There was something deep inside me that said she would survive this. She had to.
The Mayo Clinic was amazing. Compared to the last hospital we’d been at, everything was so smooth and organized. I knew we’d come to the right place. The doctor we were seeing knew we’d come for a second opinion. The first thing he said to us was, “The tumor is operable. I suggest a lobectomy followed by whole brain radiation and chemotherapy.”
To hear the word “operable” was like hearing God directly answer our prayers. That was what we’d been praying so hard for. Let it be operable. Let them be able to take the cancer out.
Two days later, Mom was back on the operating table. After the surgery, we were again told that the surgeon was able to remove the whole tumor and he didn’t think there was any remaining cancer. I can’t do justice to this moment by putting it into words. This doctor even mentioned the word “cure”. It was incredible.
After the elation of being able to operate and the news of the doctor being able to remove all the cancer, there was the recovery. The recovery after lung surgery makes the recovery after brain surgery look like a walk in the park.
There was intense pain; my mom said it was worse than anything she’d ever felt. She’s a tough woman, but it was clear she was in agony. Even though she had an epidural and was able to control its level with a hand pump, there didn’t seem to be enough relief.
Through it all, I stayed at her side, trying to take her mind off the pain with funny stories or by reading her the comments from friends and family on the Caring Bridge website we’d set up. She stayed in the hospital over a week after the surgery.
During that week, I spent a lot of time in hospital’s chapel, praying. Every day I’d pray for her healing and that she’d be cured. I prayed that God would let us keep her longer. I’d never prayed so fervently in my life.
I stayed with my mom for a total of 5 weeks that summer, making it back to Arizona just in time to celebrate my 1 year anniversary with Tim. I’d lost 10 pounds even though I didn’t exercise one day while I was there.
Even though her surgeries were behind her, even more grueling treatments were ahead. She had to endure whole brain radiation and chemotherapy, all done “just in case” there were any cancer cells left in her body. The doctors called it an insurance policy.
Although there are long-term side effects my mom still deals with, she is alive today. She is among the few people who can call herself a four year stage IV lung cancer survivor. I could not be more proud of her. I fully expect that she will live to see my kids’ weddings, just like I told her before we went to the Mayo Clinic.
I love you, Mom.
A Little Yumminess says
What an amazing story. wow! wow! Thank you for sharing. Your mom looks awesome!
Averie @ Love Veggies and Yoga says
what a touching and beautiful post!
Major hugs to you and your mama for both being great mamas!
Helen says
Wow! I am speechless at this moment. Thank you for sharing your story. It is amazing what God can do. Your mom is an amazing woman, and I am sure she will see those beautiful babies of yours at their weddings. Tell her she has many years to practice her dance steps for that wonderful, special day. Your faith is so inspiring!
Jillian says
What an amazing woman your mom is! I am so happy that she has remained cancer free. It was hard reading your story even though I already knew the outcome. Tears!!!! Thanks for sharing it.
Lindsay@LivingLindsay says
Ah, this gave me chills. I love happy endings and I’m so so happy that you had a second opinion. So many people take their doctor’s input as if it were the only solution in the world, and it just isn’t true. Just imagine if you wouldn’t have done that? Your Mom is a beautiful, strong woman and I’m so proud of her for staying so strong through everything. But, you are just as amazing because you were right there with her through it all and I’m sure she will be forever grateful to you for that.
Michaela says
I am so happy for you that your mom recovered. Thank you so much for sharing this, it really touched me. It is great to hear you kept your positive attitude!
Zen Tree Wellness says
What a great story, Maryea! Thanks for sharing. xo
Alya says
you are an amazing daughter Maryea, and your mom is a strong woman!
I wish you many-many-many happy and healthy years together to all of you!
Lee says
I got tears in my eyes reading this. That’s so great that your mom is a survivor. My dad had bladder cancer which normally isn’t that big of a deal (relatively speaking) but his was a rare kind and he had to have his bladder removed and at one point during his recovery, he went into renal failure. I know how scary it can be to think that you are going to lose a parent.
Lee says
He’s doing fine now too. I just realized that my comment was kind of ambiguous.
Ann-Louise says
What an encouraging and amazing story. Thank you so much for sharing it and it’s an important reminder to appreciate one’s own mother a bit more every single day. Such a beautiful photo of her and Meghan together.
52weekbabyfood says
Amazing and beautiful. Thanks for sharing!
Alex@Spoonful of Sugar Free says
What a beautiful story, Maryea. I can’t imagine the feelings that you and your mom have gone through. She is such a strong and gorgeous person-and so are you!
Kristina @ spabettie says
what an incredibly touching story! and that last photo is so precious.
thank goodness for second opinions! it’s amazing what a positive attitude can do in healing. when my uncle was diagnosed with the very same cancer, he said “we can beat this!” and he did!
thank you so much for sharing! hug your mom for me! 🙂
Jane says
Thank you so much for sharing this amazing story about your Mom. I can see why you have such a strong motivation to eat foods that promote health, and to share that passion with others. I’m so glad your Mom beat the odds and survived, and for such an uplifting and informative blog to read.
Candy @ Healthy in Candy Land says
Wow! Thank you for sharing this story. I am sure that part of your mom’s recovery was due to the support she received from you. You should be proud, of her, as well as yourself. I’m so glad she is doing well.
Kelli H (Made in Sonoma) says
This was so touching. Thank you for sharing your experience. Your mom sounds like an amazing woman. 🙂
Heidi @ Food Doodles says
That really is an amazing story! I had to go back and read that twice. And I had to go get some tissues. How incredibly lucky you all are and what a beautiful and strong woman your mother is. Thank you so much for sharing this story 🙂
Lisa says
Thanks for sharing this story about your mom, Maryea. I truly understand what this is like, I wish I didn’t. Although, your mom’s story sounds a whole lot more scary than my mom’s does. One year ago, this past April my mom was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer. The type of cancer that she has has a high recurrence rate, so, I still get ripples of fear when I think about it returning. Although, I just try to be thankful for every day that I have with her. I try to remain positive that it will not return, but, I have moments when I get that fear that it will. Such a precious picture of your mom and Meghan. Congrats to your mom for surviving!
Dareth says
Thank you for sharing your story Maryea. Your mom is a wonderful lady and I have great memories of working with her at Abners. I got tears in my eyes looking at the picture of her with Meghan. She truly is amazing to have gone through what she has and it is no doubt that you were part of her recovery! I work in a cancer hospital and see patients and their families go through this day after day. Family support is extremely important and makes a difference. I don’t always get to see how it ends for my patients so it is stories like yours that remind me why I do what I do. Thank you! Congratulations to you and your mom! You are both Survivors!
Maia says
What an AMAZING story. So beautiful. That picture of your mom and daughter is priceless.